I went to church today for the first time in what seemed like forever. For those of you who know me this is kind of a surprise because I am almost always talking about the things of God. I had lost my FOCUS. In fact, I had somewhat given in to my worldly desire of striving for “success” in the manner that the world sees it. Needless to say the art of focusing ON myself is one that I can do with ease. I have been thinking that I was completely unsatisfied with the current job I have and the location that GOD has placed me in. All this time, I never realized that it was my lack of intimacy and closeness with God that was the issue and NOT the current job I have (which is a major blessing). You see I am a big picture person I focus ON the larger portions in life and mostly miss out on the little details. This kind of mindset is great if you combine it with the short term details as well, but not on its own. Today in church, God allowed me to realize that all I had been doing was focusing on MYSELF. He wants an intimate relationship with us, not to just be who we pray to when there is a problem. So now I am in the process of regaining my focus, to be the man who God wants me to be, to be the husband my wife needs me to be, and the father someday who my children need me to be. Sometimes what is most important is right in front of you and you can’t see it through the chaos in your life. Sometimes all you can do is sit, pray, and focus on seeing the little brushstrokes that create the bigger picture.

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